From Mahumma - September 2014
... During my late teens, I was introduced to another saint, Amma a.k.a Mata Amritanandamayi Devi. Being a disciplined child of my parents, I accepted her holiness as my second Guru, even though I was dubious about her divinity and the whole pomp and show behind the scenes of guru hood...
... I was getting fed up with all the internal politics and drama revolving around Amma and her people, I had witnessed the transition of Amma from a scary witchcraft practitioner to a loving motherly figure and now to an internationally accepted humanitarian figure over the period of time. In the beginning of this year a book was published by Gail Tredwell a.k.a Gayatri a.k.a Swamini Amritaprana. We used to call her Gayatri amma and she was the most respected person in the ashram during the 90's, the time we started visiting Amma ...
... I was curious about the book, Holy Hell: a memoir of faith, devotion and pure madness http://www.amazon.com/Holy-Hell-Memoir-Devotion-Madness/dp/0989679403, since my faith was already beginning to fall from the pedestal. The book was not having anything new in it, most of the informations were what we had already witnessed and heard of, except for the sexual abuse part, which I swallowed with a pinch of salt ...
... I came to the conclusion that Gail's book had more truth in it and amma scandal blogs were fabricated stories based on my outer circle experiences with the organization and inability to find accurate answers for my queries ...